Reminiscing...
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Reminiscing...
| Tue, 03-09-2004 - 12:58pm |
There are somedays I can just dream about how things could be and be happy about it. Other days I am a little sad about how things could have been a little different. There were opportunities - some missed and some taken at tide - but all in all I have no regrets. I have a lots of emails from him - some not so good (LOL) and some very sweet emails from him. If were to end today, I am at a place where I can pick up the pieces and move on. This is not to say I want to end or anything - just mentioning my state of mind. Right now, mentioning "just" - I can thing of two convos with MM that are bittersweet. :) He used to hate that word coming out of my mouth, but now he is "used" to it (I think). LOL
Anyway, thanks for letting me ramble on my random thoughts here. This board has been a godsend (literally!!)to me and I love posting my thoughts here. Thanks...

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Those panic attacks stink, don't they?
In line with the original post, yes, our relationships are bittersweet. I am thankful for so many things my MM brings to me. I have so much more than I would have if he had never entered my life.
But I also know that this isn't the right time for us to be completely together. There may not be a "right" time in this life. There are a lot of reasons for it, and I go back and forth, with occasional full blown, tie on your running shoes and head for the hills panic attacks.
And then, like a horse whisperer, he gentles me and reminds me that he loves me. And for a while, I can breathe again.
Cazrida
Just feeling a tad moony...
"I wish you enough sun to keep your attitude bright.
I wish you enough rain to appreciate the sun more.
I wish you enough happiness to keep your spirit alive.
I wish you enough pain so that the smallest joys in life appear much
bigger.
I wish you enough gain to satisfy your wanting.
I wish you enough loss to appreciate all that you possess.
I wish enough "Hello's" to get you through the final "Goodbye."
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