Off the Rollercoaster and onto the Merry-Go-Round
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|Mon, 09-17-2012 - 7:03pm|
Its been a few weeks since I broke it off with my AP (for the 3rd time). Nothing has changed.On Wednesday he was drunk, called and professed his love for me "I love you, I love you, I love you...I want to scream it from the rooftop!" He went on to say how he is his best with me. He sits home in one room and his W in another and wishes he could be with me. This went on for about 40 minutes. Thursday he is sober and calls around 11 Pm, which is late for him. I didn't notice and he texted and continued to call. I finally realized I got a call and answered. He was upset. I reassured him that I just didn't hear the phone. He was crying. Upset we couldn't be together and said I realize I can't give you anything. He wanted to get together the next day. I couldn't so we had lunch on Saturday. It was Ok
I have no idea when I will see him again outside work. He is going on vacation with his W in a couple weeks. He is still not making any movement to leaving his W, still making future plans with her.
One good thing is that I am getting tired of this and my feelings have gone from thinking we have a spiritual soul mate connection...that just can't be helped to feeling that I want and deserve much more than a bunch of words and 2 X a month intimacy. My feelings are waning...this makes me somewhat relieved but very sad too.