Saddy2003 & all who responded

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Registered: 03-27-2003
Saddy2003 & all who responded
Fri, 09-05-2003 - 11:00am
I want to thank everyone who responded to me last week regarding why I am finally on my own and developing a real relationship with MM (who separated himself). I especially want to thank Saddy for sharing her story with me. I could 100% see myself in your life, especially because I have the same exact thoughts that I did not do enough to save the marriage and the whole guilt and H promising to change - even the controlling and abusive thing. I am taking everyone's advice and living day to day. it helps that I really cannot just go back that easily since i signed a year lease and am on the hook for that. But I do have thoughts that if I let MM go, I could see H and see what might be there. But you are right! "What got me to this point and where do I go from here to get what I want?" I had over 2 years with H and was unhappy. It is rough with developing a realtionship with MM but he treats me with love and respect, which H did not. I don't believe those things he can change about himself. SO I am taking it day by day, not thinking too far down the road. We've only been separated one month and boy has it been an adjustment. But I am getting a bit better.

Thanks!