Scream, Cus, *expletive* *expletive*
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| Wed, 12-17-2003 - 9:20am |
AARRRRRRRRGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHH!!! I really just need to go outside and scream at the top of my freakin lungs! This morning was going to be the morning. I was going to make the move....*kiss the boy* for God's sake. I'm tired of playing this silly cat and mouse game!
Well, let's start with last night. Both he and his wife came in to pick up the kids. Happened that all my "parents" got here at the same time so there was a bit of ruccus and commotion (btw, HDCmomma stands for home daycare-momma) so all the parents are leaving including OM and his wife. Wife was the first one up the stairs, followed by a couple others and then OM and I followed OM. I kinda grabbed his waist and pulled him to me and he reached his arm backwards and grabbed my waist, but then pushed away.
So I had made up my mind that this morning, I was going in for the kiss. WELL....OM dropped the kids off 30 minutes early and my H was still home, but in bed. DAMMIT! So it's now another 24 hours before I can make my move. Tomorrow is the last day OM will be here. If it's not tomorrow, then it won't be until the new year! I'm going to lose my mind!

Too funny...I was just telling myself that I needed to cool it until after the new year. Maybe there will be less guilt after the holidays...when he won't be with his family 24/7 for 2 weeks straight...I'm keeping my eye on the prize though...it'll happen. It's inevitable. I'm not going to get my hope up about seeing him tomorrow before his 2 week break....but I won't be so upset if nothing happens...again! LOL
Enjoy your break from all those kids and remember it will be so good when you finally get it. My MM and I talked about it for 2 months before we took a four-day "business" trip together and it was wonderful.