Self Worth
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| Wed, 04-07-2004 - 12:29pm |
I've come to the mindset that regardless of how the R between MM and I play out, he has given me a valuable gift...myself back. I know that there are men out there who can love me and cherish me and treat me in such a wonderful way....I am worthy of good things to happen. I am a young (well, somewhat young, 35) woman, fairly attractive, with a bright and wonderful future ahead of myself...for me and my children. I love my MM with all my heart and soul, but if things don't work out, I know that eventually things will work out for me. As my MM so eloquently put it...."most men are not like what you are used to" (meaning like my H). I'm holding on to that tightly and I'm not letting go.
I'm not giving up on my R with MM....just playing it safe. I never want our R to end, but, then again, I didn't get married thinking that R would end, too.
I love you...my MM....and I thank you.

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Seriously though, I can see myself in your post a lot. I see myself becoming the person I wasn't before I got married. I see the glimpses of her now and then. Yes, I too thank OM to let me be as myself - silly, goofy, affectionate girl that replaced by serious, grave and sad person from all that ups and down in my marriage. I hope to be joining your soon- to-be-single status soon. YAAY for us, NRY.
I think a lot of us felt this way, that who were ended up getting pushed aside for someone else, because of new obligations, or whatever. It's so nice to have someone like us for who were are, especially when it lets us get back to liking ourselves as well.
I completely agree with you. I don't know if OW and I will work out, but most important is that I've found I can be me -- 100%, not some adjusted, acceptable me -- and be completely loved and adored. Pretty good feeling, isn't it?
It really sounds like you are putting it all together. It was really nice to read your post.
rain
I was not the person that I thought everyone else wanted me to be.
With that, MM provided my with the confidence to show my true colours outside of our R.
You should see some of the reactions I'm getting now from my H, friends and family. My H has often said recently "Who are you, and where is my wife?" My mom and dad are floored by some of the things that come out of my mouth. My girlfriend has said "I've never seen you act like this before", and my kids are speachless at times.
Anyway, in all the discussions around our house lately, my H says he didn't realize that we had problems and thought we have a great relationship. My response, "Geez, for a couple that has such a great relationship, there is certainly a lot we don't know about each other"
I guess that's what the next while will be all about. Finding out who we are now - 100%. Hopefully, we like each other. LOL
Thanks for the great post.
Red
best of luck on your new life's course!! i hope you get your heart's desire whether that with your MM or not. make your life what you want it to be.
life
IS has taught me so many things. But most of all, she taught me that it is okay to be who I am. In fact, she loves me for who I am. I never thought I would be lucky enough to find someone who so truly loves the real me with all my faults and mistakes. I now have more self-confidence than I ever have in my entire life. I find myself succeeding at work and making new friends. I wake up each morning invigorated. I am eternally grateful to IS for helping me to see that I am worthwhile and I do have so much to offer. I only hope I can pay her back by helping her to see the incredible person she is. I plan to spend my life doing just that. :)
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