Self Worth

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Registered: 02-16-2004
Self Worth
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Wed, 04-07-2004 - 12:29pm
When I got married, I was a bright, confident, full of life girl who had (still has) a good head on her shoulders. During the course of my marriage, the verbal abuse I endured caused me to change from the person I was to someone completely different. I wasn't as self-confident and questioned my own decisions...I just didn't feel like I was the person I should have been. I had been contemplating D for quite a while...months...maybe even the past couple of years. Last Fall, MM came along. He is a great listener, friend, confidant, lover, everything I need and deserve for myself. With my MM I am able to be the person I used to be and can continue to be.

I've come to the mindset that regardless of how the R between MM and I play out, he has given me a valuable gift...myself back. I know that there are men out there who can love me and cherish me and treat me in such a wonderful way....I am worthy of good things to happen. I am a young (well, somewhat young, 35) woman, fairly attractive, with a bright and wonderful future ahead of myself...for me and my children. I love my MM with all my heart and soul, but if things don't work out, I know that eventually things will work out for me. As my MM so eloquently put it...."most men are not like what you are used to" (meaning like my H). I'm holding on to that tightly and I'm not letting go.

I'm not giving up on my R with MM....just playing it safe. I never want our R to end, but, then again, I didn't get married thinking that R would end, too.

I love you...my MM....and I thank you.

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Registered: 09-16-2003
In reply to: noregretsyet
Fri, 04-09-2004 - 2:05pm
why?
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Registered: 02-16-2004
In reply to: noregretsyet
Fri, 04-09-2004 - 2:07pm
Just you trying to help S&B with her self-worth....she hasn't posted anything else....I think we scared her off.... :)
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Registered: 09-16-2003
In reply to: noregretsyet
Fri, 04-09-2004 - 2:10pm
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Edited 4/24/2004 4:33 pm ET ET by julietsfate
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Registered: 02-16-2004
In reply to: noregretsyet
Fri, 04-09-2004 - 2:24pm
And don't get her wet or feed her after midnight...
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Registered: 09-16-2003
In reply to: noregretsyet
Fri, 04-09-2004 - 2:35pm
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Edited 4/24/2004 4:34 pm ET ET by julietsfate
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Registered: 03-30-2004
In reply to: noregretsyet
Fri, 04-09-2004 - 2:44pm
you two are cracking me up! i think you drove her "away" which isn't far for S&B. ha!

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