Seperated from H

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Registered: 03-10-2004
Seperated from H
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Sun, 03-14-2004 - 11:28am
So H decided to leave this morning, said he couldn't take my apathy any longer. He said I obviously needed space from him and I needed to decide what was more important, our relationship or my need to be "independent." That was one of the reasons I told him I was struggling with, also my need to develop myself as an individual, a strong individual, but the most important reason, which I was too much of a coward to say was that I'm not sure I'm in love with him anymore. I thought this "seperation" may be good for us, but he was angry with me for letting him go, in his mind confirming that I no longer want him, which is not entirely true. I do love him, just unsure if I'm still in love with him and I am confused. I hope these feelings are not a result of the A or MM. I care about MM, am not in love with him yet, but must admit I have invested a lot of emotions there as well and I know there is no possible real future with MM.

So where does that leave me? What do I do with this time? Maybe I should go seek counseling. If I wait too long I know that H will not come back as he will start to hate and resent me, like he was when I let him go this morning and that may be the biggest mistake of my life. He loves me so much and we've shared 11 years together, will I ever find that again? Do I want to throw that away? Any advice??

ibc

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Registered: 03-13-2004
Sun, 03-14-2004 - 1:36pm
hey ibe.

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