Sick and tired of feeling sick and tired...
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|Wed, 09-19-2012 - 3:48pm|
I think it's time to bow out of the A. After being ignored last night, I don't know if I want to continue to do this. It never changes; after 6 years, it is getting old. It doesn't feel good anymore; I am not having fun. I know it is just sex, but I want so much more that will never be. My feelings are there, and I am tired of ignoring them and playing along with his game. He is a selfish jerk who doesn't care about anyone's feelings but his own. He is a womanizer, who is lonely and needs to feel validated.
Why? The question keeps rolling around my head. Why do I deal w/his bs? Why do I continue to be his fool who will do anything for him? Why do I have to feel like crap and care about someone who doesn't care back? None of it makes sense!!! Any reasonable person would have walked away. What is wrong with me? I have a loving H, who will move mountains for me, and I want the a@@hole!!!!!