This is so hard….
Find a Conversation
This is so hard….
| Tue, 09-16-2003 - 11:49am |
I am a lurker who is really having a hard time today coming in terms with the fact that its time for me to move on… How do you tell a man that you love that your situation is impossible? Can words really convey the depths of despair that you feel? How do I tell him that I would be in his arms in a jiffy if you could? How can I tell him that I need him as much as he needs me, but I cannot bring myself to do it? Things have changed so much that there is no way out, not at least in the near future. I am not selfish to keep him as an option when and if I choose to leave my marriage. It may take years and I cannot ask him to wait for me. I want him to find somebody who can bring him happiness that he deserves and love him completely the way that I do. I pray that he does find this woman and wants to have a family with her. Maybe then I’ll get to see how his children really would look like…. I want him to be happy and I cannot give him what he wants, which is to be his. Dragging my feet on this issue is going to hurt him and I don't want to do that... This is so hard, why did it have to be this way…

the only person you're being unfair to is YOU. figure out what you want and need, and make it happen. if that's staying with your BF, then end the A. if you want the OM, then break up with your BF and move on. again, jmho!
good luck whatever you decide,
gurl
*hugs*
Liberal