This is so hard
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This is so hard
| Mon, 02-23-2004 - 1:40pm |
My 5 month affair ended 3 weeks ago. He was at the office today and this is getting too much for me to handle. I caught him looking at me several times, and I was so hoping that he would tell me he wants another go at it. I think maybe eventually he will, I still see the lust in his eyes when he looks at me and when he talks to me. We shared a lot of things in that 5 months, it was so exciting. I am 10 yrs older than him but he made me feel so young and alive. Things were so intense at times, it's hard to pretend that nothing ever happened between us. He said that he had been attracted to me since he met me a year and a half ago. He winked at me the other day, that was something between us. I don't know if he realized he did it. I have to force myself not to call him or not to ask him if he still thinks about it and still wants it as much as I do. This is driving me crazy, I have good days and I have bad days, this is really a bad day. I am feeling so down, I wish I knew if he still wants me.

(((hugs)))