So much easier w/out the A
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| Thu, 11-06-2003 - 11:43am |
Well anyways..i guess the hormone fluctuation had me crying and getting all emotinoal with mm....its like life would be so much easier without an A. IT definelty would yet the thought of not having mm in my life saddens me and so ending the A is not my solution. But sometimes...it controls my life...my thoughts...my mood...my sense of being.
I have a good marriage and don't want my mm to get in the way of that but sometimes when its easier to talk with mm cuz there aren't the daily stressors of life weighing us down....i get scared. When i have argued with my h, sometimes mm will still pop into my head and i'll start thinking about him and i stop myself cuz, well the h needs to be the forfront of it all. I think about mm all the time....all the time....
IT has also come out that mm hasn't been able to share his soul with me cuz i get upset and an attitude change when he starts talking about his life...w...children...etc. I know i shouldn't do this and i am trying....but how can i embrace his life and not let it bring me down?
Does anyone know where i am coming from? Any words of wisdom to share? Sorry this message is scattered with different ideas and crap...but that is how my brain feels righ now.
Hope everyone is doing well today.
And were is shouldi and mommydotcom....haven't seen posts from you guys lately.
peace

insofar as your feelings for H and MM, understand please that you ARE scattered and emotional right now (and will be for at least another week or so until your hormones settle down). it's natural when we argue with our mates to think about the MM/OM in our lives. for most of us, that a comfort and doesn't mean we aren't respecting H/BF/SO, just a defense mechanism and comfort zone.
and of course life would be easier without EMA/As, but reality is that all of us on this board are (or were) involved with MM/OM and that's why we're here. i can't offer any words of wisdom, just support for what you're going through now.
so relax now and take care of yourself so you can recover from the miscarriage. everything will get back to normal soon. and you'll feel better, and be far more able to deal, with your life, H, MM and the future.
take care of you,
gurl
I wish you the best of luck in whatever you decide to do but be extra nice to yourself as you adjust to the loss of your baby and to the emotional and hormonal changes that come along with your miscarriage.
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Hi Sabrina,
Hon... I feel for you and what you are going through... a miscarriage turns you upside down and inside out... it just makes you a whole mess until your body starts to put your hormones back in order.
You will feel so much more emotional at this time... and will try harder to make sense of all that is going around you.
Sweet
Co-Community Leader My
Just so tired of the waiting game. I need it to be over.
soooo sorry you're going through this!. good luck and let us know how you're doing after.
hugs,
gurl
,and yes having an a can control your every thought and mood.Doing the family thing is really hard because I want to be with om,but that's just not possible to be with him as much as I'd like.I think about my om when me and h are intimate and that scares the hell out of me.Sometimes I wish I would just get caught.I don't no how this stupid page got messed up.