So upset!

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Registered: 08-20-2003
So upset!
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Wed, 08-20-2003 - 4:00pm


I dont know what to do, and how to get over my feelings of disgust, sickness and guilt. I Went out night before the wedding with bro-law to be, and a few others night before wedding. Got way to drunk (I have a very low tolerance). I remember very, very little, but do know I had sex with bro-in-law-to-be. I know drinking is not an excuse, and I was flirty, because I like attention. But I honestly did not think anyone would do such a thing (especially not me - I remember so little - just vague bits). I never believed that someone who was getting married would take advantage of a situation like that, even though I know its my fault. I could never tell my sis, and my family would never speak to me again. I feel so sick, and I know I deserve to feel this way. Am I the most evil person that ever lived? How do I fix this? Am I myself going to be single forever or have a cheating spouse myself because I was such a bad person?

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Registered: 03-27-2003
In reply to: francesbaby
Thu, 08-21-2003 - 1:13pm
I believe in order to be forgiven, by whatever greater being you are seeking forgiveness from, you need to first find forgiveness in yourself. Remember that you are human and that we all make mistakes. The true remorse that you are expressing is proof that forgiveness is vital to you. Dig deeply and you'll find the love in yourself to grant that forgiveness so you can move forward with your self realization process and improving your inner self.

Best of luck to you!

Liberal

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