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sorelyconfused
| Tue, 02-24-2004 - 1:02am |
Ok, I'm going to try to be brief. I've been having an affair, mostly emotional since he lives far away, for almost 3 years. I've known him for 13 years and I have been married for almost eleven. We have a child together, but my husband raises him as his own. We have kept in contact through the years (not too much because it was hard for me) concerning the child. I loved this man the moment I laid eyes on him, but we were both really young and not in a good situation. But, nonetheless, I loved him, genuinely. We started emailing regularly in 2001 because he was approaching thirty and wanting to get things in his life together. He was considering a relationship with my son. After many discussions, husband included, we decided that would not be a positive thing at this point. And I knew it would lead to trouble if I saw him. Well, I saw him anyway, and it did lead to trouble. But it felt like coming home. There is no other way to put it. Being with him, not just in a sexual way, feels so natural. It isn't cause it is perfect or anything like that. It just is... I love my husband, he is a great guy, and I don't want to hurt him. But I am so in love with the other guy. I always have been, but I never thought anything would come of it, of course I dreamed and wished it would. I don't want to give up my family, I love my life. But I cannot fathom moving on without the other guy. I don't know what I'm looking for from this board. So, give me whatever you've got. ;)

good morning sorelyconfused and welcome to the board.
CL-Gurlfriend50
Co-CL of My Affair Support Board
You have one life to live. There are no 'do-overs' in life. You will need to make a tough decision all too soon by the sounds of it. Keep the father of your child in your life- you may love your current life (as I do) but be true to yourself. A deep love as you have described doesn't come along often. Take your time honey... this will be hard.
hey solelyconfused, we definitely acknowledge your feelings for both your H and OM as
CL-Gurlfriend50
Co-CL of My Affair Support Board