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Registered: 05-31-2010
Wed, 08-15-2012 - 6:35pm

I despise squirrels.  I never really had them with AP 1 but this time around somedays I am going nuts.  It's been a whole week since we have seen each other and it is driving me nuts.  I'm used to seeing him day after day after day.  But we just haven't been able to get it to work this past week.  Although I have talked to him daily, including Saturday and Sunday.  I know he has some things going on at home that need to be taken care of.  Crap that stresses a person out and I am really trying to be understanding because I hear from him all day, we've discussed the problems (things don't really involve SO, other crap) we've discussed how it should be handled, etc, etc.  His favorite line to me lately is slow and steady will win the race.  I want to see change - I can't help it.  I need to see change.  But he keeps telling me I need to have patience.  I don't have patience.  I suck at patience.  He keeps telling me I will get what I want but I need to be patient with him.

We had a discussion the other week about him and SO.  He says he never sees himself marrying her, she is not what he wants he's just trying to comprehend anything before he makes any changes and he knows people will help him if he makes change and he is just trying to process.  Fair enough request.  One would think.  I try very hard to be patient and while I understand it hasn't been that long I feel like we can't really get to know each other and he does agree with the limited time we are finding ourselves in.  I know I need to be patient, but how patient am I supposed to be.  How long of a shelf life am I supposed to put on this?  I have nothing else going on right now but the longer and the more time spent together the harder I will fall.  I really need to see him and I'm sure that will make things better, but I guess I need to decide how long of a time is long enough before I call shelf life.  Last AP and I ended up together in 7-8 months.  I don't know if I can do this for that long.  August is a crappy month for me - hopefully once September starts I will find myself more busy and less involved.