Starting something new.. help

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Starting something new.. help
Fri, 09-05-2003 - 2:47am
Hello, You have all been such a great support with the whole thing last jan when i slept with childhood sweetheart.and now something new has come up.

Its hard to believe its happening, cause dh and i were doing so well, but last friday I met his step brother again after a casual meeting 4 years ago. When i met him the first time his wife and baby ( he now has 2) were there, it was a family wedding, his dad my mom in law and i was blown away but hardly talked to him.

So last week, at my dh's brother's wedding OM comes to photograph. I was again, wow'd, but this time we started talking and immediately it was clear that 4 years ago what i felt wasn't imagined. We talked all day, and he just held me, and although there was no kissing or anything, the connection was so strong. I left there, with an open mind, I live about a 3 hr flight away now, and just said, that if this is what we want, then come see me. Maybe unfair, but after all the crap of last year, I don't want to get over my head again. I gave him my email address and phone, and when i got home the next day, had an email and message.

At first it just seemed unreal, the way he was talking, how intense so quickly. But as the week went on, and the phone calls and text messages increased, it seemed that I would die without seeing him again. Yesterday Dh confronted me. Said i was so transparent, not there, not affectionate towards him, something was up. I told OM, and we talked at length about his W already asking him if he still loved her. We agreed to 'be normal' to our others and try to cool the talking for now. Also he said he can't even touch her much less have sex with her, and last night DH and I had sex. We are very open with eachother, OM and I and I think I will tell him, I just don't know how things got so intense so fast. It just started so innocently, a crush, and now I don't want to loose him.. arg..


thanks for letting me vent, till monday byee