Staying strong

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Registered: 09-21-2007
Staying strong
Thu, 10-18-2012 - 1:19pm

I have not spoken to AP since Saturday, and his comment.  5 days of NC for me!!!!  Honestly, for the first time, I don't want to reach out to him and I don't want him talking to me.  I am always afraid I am going to chase him away, but this time, I just don't care.  What does he give me besides sex and a headache?

At the same time, I am still talking to the other guy.  He is a sweetheart, and makes me feel good.  He does want to get together for more, but I don't know.  I like him, but I don't have the energy or time for another guy.  But, I do consider it, because I want to "dump" AP.  I have very strong feelings for AP, but I don't know if I can do it anymore.  I am just taking it one day at a time, and focusing on everything else than the 2 of them.  It has been a busy week for me, and I am thankful for that!


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