Stepping off the Roller Coaster
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Stepping off the Roller Coaster
| Fri, 09-19-2003 - 3:26pm |
Well, I've decided to call it quits with my A w/MM. It is clear to me that it's not going to go anywhere and staying where it is is not good enough for me. I can't handle waiting several days to hear from him. We were together last Friday and he went out of town and has not called since. I ran into him in passing yesterday and still no phone call from him. I'm done playing this game and am going to seek a more healthy relationship with someone who is NOT married and more emotionally available. I don't know how I got here, but I am glad that I kept my guard up for the last 7 months and didn't let my emotions get out of control. I see now that our relationship is only based on sex and even though he *said* things that might make me think otherwise, reality (and his actions) tell me otherwise. I've pledged to myself that I will never get involved again with someone who is unavailable. It's not worth the pain. I want to tell him how disappointed I am in him, but I don't want to give him the satisfaction in knowing that he got to me. I also want to tell him that he needs to be careful with his next young toy because she may not be as level headed as me. It hurts, but I can deal with it on my own. I don't feel like I need to tell him how I feel anymore.
I can sleep normal again.
I wish you all the best of luck in your A's and that you get the fulfillment you need from it. For those of you who are single....I would advise getting rid of him because he just wants his cake and eat it too without making any sacrifices. As for me, I'm worth making the sacrifice and if a man is not willing to...then he's not worthy of my love.
All the best.
Sher

Can't be good. Good luck with you. Keep us (even me) posted on how he reacts and how you carry on. I am curious...