still a fool after 3 years
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still a fool after 3 years
| Sun, 01-18-2004 - 8:40pm |
i posted a message the other day about how my x MM called me up after 2.5 years after our affair ended to tell me he how the past 1.5 years or so he has been tying to save his marriage but his wife to end it. he was on his was to the mediator but the night before that meeting onhow to tel the kids, he finds out that she has been screwign her boss fo rhte past 4 years and that she had another affair before that with someone else in her office! he was crazed. all he wanted to tell me was hi - and that if i am ever called to give a depostion or go to trial that i owuld deny our affair. I said i would not eve lie under oath. he wnet on to tell me how he told his lawyer that we had an affair and that it ended a while ago (did i mention we periodically calls me and writes to me) andhow he was the one who has been holding and trying to keep the marriage together (then he says - sorry but thats i what wanted- to keep my family together- and it doesnt have anything to do with me) and how the brazilian bikin wax the wife got wasn't for him! i was crushed!!! yes, we ended it but there but little hints that he missed me and i had hope that in time he would have wanted to have the real thing with me but all along, he was mr perfect family man. i was never an option, even when she asked for a divorce about a year ago. he was about to move out of the house until he found this info out and he had called me new years eve but i wasn't home. he is going for everything. all he wanted was for me to lie about us and not call me or email him. i was 90% over him when i got this call 4 days ago and i am crushed all over again. he thought his wife would never give him a divorce but then she told him she wanted one and he said no! i was never anything to him. now he just wants me to lie.
i dont think i am even making sende now, i am so so upset.
isnt it a hoot!!!! he is out cheating on her and she has been having affairs all along on him yet he wont forgive her! i did ask him why he couldnt get over her affairs for the kids sake becasue he is just a guilty but i guess its different for a guys ego.
i didnt need to hear about her bikini wax!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!i hope they both rott!!
he never wanted me -
i bet he will call me in about a few months and want to get together - i guess he thinks i will always be plan B.
i would have done anything for him - i amnot married and havent even dated since we broke up in hopes he would want for us to be together.
wait till the wife finds out that he knows about her affairs - i feel sorry for her.
why do i feel hurt all over agian and i feel like a nothing as well.
i dont think i am even making sende now, i am so so upset.
isnt it a hoot!!!! he is out cheating on her and she has been having affairs all along on him yet he wont forgive her! i did ask him why he couldnt get over her affairs for the kids sake becasue he is just a guilty but i guess its different for a guys ego.
i didnt need to hear about her bikini wax!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!i hope they both rott!!
he never wanted me -
i bet he will call me in about a few months and want to get together - i guess he thinks i will always be plan B.
i would have done anything for him - i amnot married and havent even dated since we broke up in hopes he would want for us to be together.
wait till the wife finds out that he knows about her affairs - i feel sorry for her.
why do i feel hurt all over agian and i feel like a nothing as well.

I an So sorry that you are being put through this, try to use this whole thing to start moveing your life forward again, you can do better then him on your worse day.
You feel bad because no one wants to believe that someone they loved would treat them like this and have not real feelings for them.
If he wanted you it at least shows he has good taste.
FREE
You are not a nothing. You have a conscience and that is what made you wait all this time, without asking him or pressurising him to be with you. Your conscience is clear - feel proud of yourself for that. Don't contact him again now. If he doesn't know how you are feeling you can damned well bet he'll be feeling guilty or will do so when you pop into his mind at some point in the future and I also hope he rots. He didn't deserve you and your loyalty. I've no doubt I'll be joining you soon with those feelings of utter despair.
Take care,
P