Stop the world, I want to get off
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| Tue, 01-13-2004 - 9:01am |
I mean, I'm an attractive, educated career woman with a good future ahead of me and I can go to any bar tonight and not go home alone. So why was I sitting there, staring at a plate of spaghetti, waiting for him to sign onto ICQ and light up my world? And he did. He send me an MP3 file - it turned out to be Van Halen's "Hot for Teacher", a private joke between us since we found out yesterday that I'll be conducting a training class that he has to sit in on while he's here.
I just wish I could read him like a book. I want to open up the cover and see the real story inside. Not that I think he's hiding anything from me, but there is some deliberate shielding of his life. I guess that comes with the territory, but I'm falling so hard for him and from the way he talks about his confusion and torn feelings, I know he's feeling the same. I just want to crawl through the computer monitor sometimes and shake him and say "what are my chances, here?" and in the same moment, I don't want to go that far because things are so good as they are and I don't want to ruin that.
Is anyone else standing on the same madly spinning planet?
Lisa

can you talk to MM at all about how you are feeling? you don't need to be confrontational, you just need to let MM know how you are feeling. he will either step up to the plate for you or will want to keep the A status quo, but at least you'll know and you can decide where to go from there.
just my thoughts, honey. don't waste time wondering, just ask!
gurl
Just ask him.
Whatever the answer is you will deal. I have come out and asked what my chancese are, and I still "check in" on that question because it makes me feel better. He's got a pretty sweet deal here. Least he can do is tell me the truth, and he always does, and we always talk about it, and that's why it works.
If you decide to ask good luck. If not, still enjoy, and don't worry. You'll always have spaghettie, wine, and this board hehe.
Jenny