Things are looking UP!

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Registered: 03-30-2004
Things are looking UP!
Thu, 05-13-2004 - 12:39pm
Well, I haven't posted in a while, but I have been visiting some. I just wanted to say that MM and I have still had no IC but we have continued over the past few weeks (since the big blow up by me) to get things back on track. We have been talking constantly throughout the day and about all sorts of things. Everything but US. But since Monday this has taken a major turn......... MM has been telling me how much I mean to him and how great we are together and how much he thinks of me. Yesterday he made the comment that...........you could think of me tonight..... to which I replied, I always do. He did confess to me yesterday that he loved being around me and that I "make his days good". He also told me that alto there are times that I've "pissed him off, he has never stopped feeling for me the way he does". When I asked him about when I made him mad, he told me it's been a while back (maybe reason for NIC) and I felt this was his way to try and open the conversation to US.

Red, this is to you........ I want to thank you for the great advice of just backing off and letting him come to me if/when he wanted. He has. This week there have been serious hints that he wants to see me and he even asked me this morning if I would go with him sometime this summer to some rodeos...........to which I replied, only IF it's somewhere good!!! So I think him coming back to me is inevitable. But after everything I said, I can see where he doesn't know where he really stands with me. I haven't completely taken the bait, I just can't take that leap right now. But he has come by for a hug one afternoon, and he tells me that I am in his thoughts every minute. I finally got up the courage yesterday to ask him if he read all those nasty things I said that day....he said , yes, all of it, every word. I asked him if that was one of the times that I pissed him off and he said, no, not really. Maybe since the blow up came on the heels of me telling him how much he meant to me, made him come to some sort of realization. I still have no clue what it is, but, I do know that I am in his mind and his heart ..... and yesterday he admitted his carnal thoughts.....lol Thanks for your wisdom and for you help. It is appreciated.

Altho, I cannot come to this sight as much as I would like to, I still consider each of you friends and confidantes. It's been hard these past few weeks, I guess I felt like a whinner and just didn't really want to admit the pain I was going thru. Not even to myself.

Thanks you guys!

Kitty