i took lots of what you all said to heart, yesterday was another day of annoying misses. He was planning on coming on msn, when he gets there, we chat maybe 2 lines about nothing special and they need the fax line so he has to go.. i flipped out. Wrote him 3 text messages about this just being such bull, and that i am sick of these misses, feel so disconnected, and hurt and just hate this.. I waited around all day just to chat with him, not going home, or teaching or whatever else I HAD to do for him, so just went home.
When i got there, no text back so i phoned.. i told him whats going on, and he said that the past few days have been stressful, and his wife saw his phone with 2 angry msg from me and asked why he was talking to me. He said it was about the wedding photos ( 3 weeks ago..) but she has already been asking as early as 3 days after we met, if he was still in love with her, and when the pics were developed, she saw mine and said, wow she's pretty, and he said,( too enthusiastically, she's gorgeous), so that didn't help.. but we talked and i felt much better, just things as usual, but his feelings for me haven't changed, even when i flew off the bars. He was really joking and laughing and saying he will try.. ( again to do better.. ) am i a victim here.. not yet i hope.. thanks for listening..