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| Fri, 06-25-2010 - 11:00am |
It's been awhile, and we have some newbies here, so lets all share our stories so everyone will better get to know everyone else.
I get so sick of telling my story - if it weren't dangerous I'd have a copy in "word" to re-post everytime we have a roll call but here goes (short version).
I've been married many years to a man I met in high school and we have grown children and grandchildren. I met my OM online on a social message board. A mutual cyber friend introduced us because she knew he didn't live that far from me (about 35 min. - REALLY close in the cyberworld) and she knew we would hit it off. We met for real after e-mailing and flirting on the message board for awhile, and now, here it is, 11 years later! (Actually 11 1/2) My OM is single. I have many conflicts about that, from hoping that I am NOT getting in his way of finding a real relationship, to feeling dread at the thought that he will find one someday - much as I hope he will! He is not my first affair, although I had my first at 15 years of marriage. I came to MAS about 3 or 4 years ago (really can't remember) and have been an off and on again poster. When I realized in March that there hadn't been a CL here for months, and that the board was suffering from that lack, I decided to step up and apply for the position myself.
So, please share your story here and let us get to know you!

You've got a lot of choices. If getting out of bed in the morning is a chore and you're not smiling on a regular basis, try another choice. ~Steven D. Woodhull

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Chechi,
Ditto, people would be shocked to death to know that I was having an A. Just like you from the outside everything looks great.
You've got a lot of choices. If getting out of bed in the morning is a chore and you're not smiling on a regular basis, try another choice. ~Steven D. Woodhull
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Haven't posted in a while, but wanted to share my story as well.
I'm a MW, in an A with a SM. Love my H dearly but have had issues throughout our relationship. Been together for 6 years, married for 1 year now. Fell in love with someone else while we were dating but never followed through... always stayed with him because I thought my life would be better with him. He never found out, he proposed, and we got married. Cheated on him 6 months in while on a work trip, freaked out, but stayed in touch with that guy (H never found out) and when that ended, quickly found myself in another A with current guy for the last 2 months. Husband still has no idea this is going on though I've expressed to him that I think there's something lacking in our marriage and we should work on it together.
Oh god, what a rollercoaster. I've been in IC, we've been in MC. I love my H so much but there's a huge part of me that is recognizing I'm not getting the intimacy I need to make a marriage work. H is slow to respond to my needs, if he does at all, which I guess I'm using as an excuse to justify the A.
I don't know what to do. H is starting to open up a little more but I'm terrified it's too little too late. AP had a gf, but broke up with her, and really wants to start a relationship - a real relationship - with me. I do love my H, I really and truly do, but I'm terrified that we just aren't right for one another. If I stay and work on my M, I know he's only going to change so much. Is that ever going to be enough for me? Or will I find myself in yet another A down the road - this time when we're older, have kids, and the stakes are higher?
It's truly a roller coaster and my emotions and decisions swing all over the place. Hugs and strength to all - this isn't easy stuff!
I am a MW involved with a SM for a little over a year.
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