Tired of it....

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Registered: 12-31-1969
Tired of it....
Thu, 09-13-2012 - 4:12pm
So tired of this roller coaster ride, been in it 2 years and I want to get off but it's like it doesn't stop long enough to let me.

The highs are so high and at times so good, but immediately afterwards it feels like I pay the price and down it comes.

I want to get off. We have a good day, great 'date night' them bump he pulls away. I don't want to do it anymore, I'm tired yet totally consumed by him I struggle to walk away for good. He's never promised me anything, all I want is a bit of respect and I'm not even sure I get that. I can do it, I need to for my own sanity.

Sorry needed to vent!
iVillage Member
Registered: 03-30-2010
In reply to:
Thu, 09-13-2012 - 4:28pm
I hear you!
Wishing you much strength Junerose!


Much peace & Love,



iVillage Member
Registered: 01-15-2007
In reply to:
Thu, 09-13-2012 - 7:53pm

The roller coaster doesn't change much the longer you stay with it.  Yes, some things got easier in my A because we knew each other so much better after the first couple years, but then that made some other things so much harder.  I don't have any great words of wisom, but you know we're here for you... vent away!

iVillage Member
Registered: 05-09-2012
Fri, 09-14-2012 - 10:36am

The roller coaster ride from hell....yeap been there done that.  You seem to have that foot solidly placed on the platform June.  Just remember that an A is like an addiction and it will take time and a lot of frustration to ween yourself from it.

iVillage Member
Registered: 12-18-2009
Fri, 09-14-2012 - 1:16pm

I am curious -- how does calling you a ' punchbag ', the ' cruelest ' thing ?? If he spelled it out  as ' Junerose37 , you are my punchbag ' , that would be different than if he shared his ' rubbish ' day with you. I would consider it an emotional sharing . Of course, you know him better

iVillage Member
Registered: 12-18-2009
Sat, 09-15-2012 - 7:22am

I am sorry if I hurt you but if he is not giving you what you want/need , you have a choice-- go MIA or break up. You dont want to have an A and be miserable. There is no difference between a marriage and an A if similar circumstances ensue.

( hugs )

Community Leader
Registered: 09-21-2007
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Tue, 09-18-2012 - 9:56pm
Sorry he was cruel. You don't deserve that from someone you love. As for advise...I would go mia for a bit. Don't reach out to him, better said than done. See what he says/does. It will say a lot about his character. Admittedly, mine has a crappy one. Lol


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