Tonite's the Night!
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Tonite's the Night!
| Sat, 04-17-2004 - 8:47am |
This will be the first time that MM and I will have the whole night together. We've rented a hotel room in another town so there's little chance of running into someone we know. This will also be the first time we've actually done "it." I'm very excited and, to my surprise, a little freaked out, too. I've never been with anyone but my H. I wonder how this will change things...between my H & me, between my MM & me, within myself. I keep thinking of that saying that cartographers of old would put on uncharted territory..."Beyond this place, there be dragons." I think that somehow I always thought that I would never let it get this far...that I would end it, turn around and go back to my life. That there would be an invisible line that I wouldn't cross. Yet here I am and there's the line and I'm getting ready to step over it.
But the thing is that I know in my heart of hearts that it's a line I WANT to cross. I'm choosing to do this. And I know that in a few hours, none of this will matter. All that will matter is that moment and there will be no place I'd rather be than with him.
So I don't know if I'm necessarily asking for advice here or if I just needed to sort out my feelings. If you have advice on how to calm my nervous self down, I'd love to hear it. (I'm already planning on having a couple of drinks at dinner!) And if you don't have advice, thank you for letting me ramble! You all are great!
Happy day!
Jess

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Make no doubt about it, things WILL change. I dont' know how for you since everyones situationa is different. Whether you know why you started down this road in the first place or not, you will after tonight.
Havin a couple drinks (no more) with dinner is a great way to relax, especially since you've never been with anyone other than DH. It is always a little nerve wracking the first time anyway.
And by the way, what reasons did you all give for being away for the night?
I need some good suggestions!
deedee
Edited 4/24/2004 4:30 pm ET ET by julietsfate
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Thank you so much for your support. It helps to know that I'm not the only one who is/was nervous about taking this step.
Have a wonderful, happy weekend!
Jess
PS to DeeDee: It worked out well for us this time. My husband is out of town this weekend and my MM told his wife he was going hunting. Don't know what we're going to do next time we want a whole night together!
~Flirty~
I will be anxious to hear about how your night went. I am living vicariously through you since my MM and I do not get to see each other very often and have not yet (and may never be intimate by choice). Please let us know how your night was.
Bria
PS. Love the fact you can spend the whole night. That is huge!
PSS FYI I am an avid fan of Brazilian bikini waxes. They do somewhat hurt but once you get them you won't stop! :)
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