Tonite's the Night!

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Registered: 03-19-2004
Tonite's the Night!
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Sat, 04-17-2004 - 8:47am
This will be the first time that MM and I will have the whole night together. We've rented a hotel room in another town so there's little chance of running into someone we know. This will also be the first time we've actually done "it." I'm very excited and, to my surprise, a little freaked out, too. I've never been with anyone but my H. I wonder how this will change things...between my H & me, between my MM & me, within myself. I keep thinking of that saying that cartographers of old would put on uncharted territory..."Beyond this place, there be dragons." I think that somehow I always thought that I would never let it get this far...that I would end it, turn around and go back to my life. That there would be an invisible line that I wouldn't cross. Yet here I am and there's the line and I'm getting ready to step over it.

But the thing is that I know in my heart of hearts that it's a line I WANT to cross. I'm choosing to do this. And I know that in a few hours, none of this will matter. All that will matter is that moment and there will be no place I'd rather be than with him.

So I don't know if I'm necessarily asking for advice here or if I just needed to sort out my feelings. If you have advice on how to calm my nervous self down, I'd love to hear it. (I'm already planning on having a couple of drinks at dinner!) And if you don't have advice, thank you for letting me ramble! You all are great!

Happy day!

Jess

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Registered: 09-16-2003
Mon, 04-19-2004 - 9:14am
If you want to fight Britan, don't send me emails. We can do it here. alright???

AND YOU NEED TO LIGHTEN UP TOO!!!!


Edited 4/19/2004 9:15 am ET ET by julietsfate

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Registered: 03-19-2004
Mon, 04-19-2004 - 10:46am
Girls! Girls! You are NOT allowed to fight on my "first sex with MM ever" post! I know you were BOTH kidding. Sheesh! Who ever thought the issue of pubic hair (or the lack thereof) would cause such an uproar.

Now go to your corners and when you're ready...kiss and make up.

:)

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Registered: 02-03-2004
Wed, 04-21-2004 - 1:00pm
I'm bumping this post up.... Jessie -- how did it go, honey?

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