Too Blind To See It

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Registered: 02-17-2009
Too Blind To See It
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Wed, 09-02-2009 - 3:24pm

Hi again. I have been here before...its been a few months. A recap of my story - meet my AP about a year ago. We knew each other from the past but it had been about 15 years. We coicidentally were out at a bar on the same night (he's living with someone with a 3 year old son, I'm married with a daughter). Never in a million years would I have expected to be into him but wow, sparks flew the instant we saw each other and so it began. We talk on e-mail every week but mostly very sexual messages, a few phone calls and have seen each other about 7 times over the year - its amazing when we are together - so much in common, hours of chatting, lots of fun and physically so good as well. I felt like I missed out on him many years ago.


Its been a roller coaster ride for me - very emotional. Because we don't see each other alot and our texting

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Registered: 02-17-2009
Sun, 09-06-2009 - 1:44pm

Hi Lost:


thanks for the offer to chat off the boards - are stories are so similiar, I was hoping to get your perspective on how you got out of it. I admire you for respecting yourself and deciding to move on. I need to get there too. The e-mail option doesn't work when I try from the boards though.

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Registered: 07-09-2008
Sun, 09-06-2009 - 9:29pm

Hi Kel,


Sorry, Ok you should now be able to e-mail me.

 

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Registered: 02-17-2009
Tue, 09-08-2009 - 8:48pm

Wow, I am still struggling...I hate all this wasted emotion. He texted me on Friday morning - my heart skipped a beat when I turned on my blackberry and saw his message. Like an idiot, I texted him back - nothing clingy but the same sentiments he sent to me and that I missed him (duh, how quickly I have forgotten about the "baby news" and how mad I should be). No text back. But that's normal. On Saturday, I thought of him and sent him an e-mail...again, carefully thinking about my words but just letting him know how I feel and no response...4 days later. My mind wanders to thoughts of him holding his newborn and how I really know nothing about his life.


CARIBU

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Registered: 08-30-2009
Tue, 09-08-2009 - 10:37pm
OMG I can totally relate to you and your original post. I have been in your spot. I have felt the urge to text AP but resisted because I did not want to be crushed by this lack of response or "take your time" to text response (many days later, if at all).
I relate to your up and down feelings... excited to be with him only to be let down a few days. Wish you the best
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Registered: 08-28-2004
Tue, 09-08-2009 - 10:39pm

Hi kelugirl,


I feel your pain. I am

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Registered: 02-17-2009
Wed, 09-09-2009 - 9:06pm
I hope today was better for you....I feel exactly the same as you described. It been almost a week since I heard from him last. Last text to me said how amazing I was, that he was having great thoughts of me and hoped he'd dream of me. I answered back and send him an additional e-mail on the weekend and NOTHING. I can't stand it. What could have happened between now and then that changed his mind!!! Its so heartbreaking for me not to know if he is ignoring me or its over or he will pop up again. He's not a regular communicator but this is a long time for us. So sad...I guess I have my answer...I need off this rollercoaster.

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