Too little too late too soon

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Registered: 02-03-2004
Too little too late too soon
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Thu, 02-12-2004 - 10:42am
Aren't those the lyrics (or nearly) to a song from the 70's. So wierd things are happening in my house. MM is still there --- he moves on this weekend, and he and H are together all day alone while I'm at the office. MM was sneaking little touches and glances that I loved, but those have already stopped (has it only been two days). I'm thinking as he and H become closer, he's starting to feel the heat. So I'm starting to feel the chill. Last night after H went to bed, I reached over just to stroke his arm. He never even looked up. Wow... just like H! I'm beginning to think I'd have been better off with a 1-night stand. Not so hard on the ego. Aren't I feeling sorry for myself this morning. Pitiful isn't it? Do these things always cycle this quickly? I can't decide if it's my normal insecurity (made worse by the circumstances), or if it really is already cooling. I'm great at giving out pat answers but not so great at taking my own advise. Sorry.. just need to vent.
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Registered: 01-20-2004
Thu, 02-12-2004 - 10:51am
Why is MM staying at your house? Are he and H friends? Maybe he just feels really uncomfortable because H is there in the house....
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Registered: 02-03-2004
Thu, 02-12-2004 - 11:06am
MM is my collegue, and we've been friends (H, Me, MM) for about a year). It's a little complicated, but we work together and are in the middle of a project). He leaves on Saturday, but will be back in a few weeks. I know he's feeling uncomfortable because he likes H, but I just sense that something else is going on. Can't put my finger on it. I'm really thinking that maybe all the times we talked about our first time being intimate built up his expectations, then the reality didn't match the fantasy. Honestly, I just don't know. The sex was wonderful for me, but I'd been without a really, really long time. And I don't have enough experience to judge the sincerity of his response. Or maybe it's just hormones... Sheesh. I hate that I'm starting to second guess everything when I was feeling so high just a few days ago.
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Registered: 01-20-2004
Thu, 02-12-2004 - 11:48am
Seems to me that its just TOO awkward a situation for him to feel anything but paranoid. That just a little too close for comfort for me. Hopefully when he leaves things can get back to normal with you both. Right now you're second guessing the situation too much. He MAY be having guilty thoughts and this is just his way of handling it. Good luck!
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Registered: 01-21-2004
Thu, 02-12-2004 - 12:23pm

saturday, it could be all those things you mentioned or none of them.

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