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|Tue, 06-24-2014 - 9:56pm|
I have a wonderful bf (well now). We been together 10 years and have 2 kids. We have had a few rough patches but now he is my best friend. He's supportive and treats me good. We have amazing sex and cant see myself without him.
My confession is for the past 4 years I've had an affair with a taken man. It started out just sex... Kinky, dirty sex you see only see in xxx videos. But over the years if has turned into more. I mean emotions that have led to those 3 dreaded words " I love you". These emotions have caused jealousy and craziness within this affair and even though its exciting i just can't do it anymore. I love this man. He's spontaneous, smart, great sense of humor, has a great job, is good looking, great in bex and is great father. He is everything a woman dreams of. But he will never leave his gf despite the fact his gf and him have only been together for 6 months longer than him and I have been seeing each other. That alone makes me feel worthless to him.
He says he loves me. He says he needs me and cant go a day without me. We haven't had sex in a year and that doesn't phase him. He still says all those things that make my heart melt. I want to leave. I've tried leaving and can't. But one thing I've never tried is leaving cold turkey. Disappearing out of nowhere. Just one day (tomorrow) end contact.no more phone calls, texts, emails. Nothing. Would it be wrong for me to end a 4 yr afraidby simply disappearing and not telling him?