Torn & So Lost
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Torn & So Lost
| Tue, 08-19-2008 - 3:15pm |
I'll make this as brief as I can! My H of 16yrs cheated on me. We agreed to work on R but like the marriage I was the only one actively working on it. I only agreed b/c of my children. After a yr of a failing R I received an email my a man who I quickly blew off. He wrote back apologizing said he was divorced and was interested in me. I've been approached many times but he somehow got to be someone I really click with. We texted here and there and after 2 months met. He's adorable which only sucked me in further. Then he slipped up and admitted he was married but separated. I ended it! this was not what I signed up for. I missed him but was determined to follow though with my decision. I didn't want that situation!!! weeks later he emails me telling me he misses me and he's hurt and that he's working on ending his marriage. Since I've been through this I get how hard it is to up and leave when children are involved. We agreed to be friends and have kept in touch but not met. Its now been 5 months I'm in deep! I try to stay detached but he is so sweet and respectful of me and my feelings. I don't ask about the state of his M. He insist that he wants me and needs me. He thanks me for letting him do things @ his pace with no pressure. He's attentive and makes sure he makes time for me no matter how busy his schedule is. I want to walk away, I know it's a bad situation. I don't want to get hurt and I don't want to be the homewrecker either. We have really tried not to meet until his situation is settled but it's getting harder w each day. We are both torn! we have tried many times to walk away but can't seem to follow through. It's not the sex and with his job & looks he has access to that. Should I hold out which is what my heart tells me to do or walk away which is what my head is telling me to do. Please help!!!!!
