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|Tue, 03-13-2012 - 11:38am|
epiphany for change, brought on with the aid of a serious reality check. Today I have reached a turning point. It may be all over but the crying -- but I hope to have the strength to move on and create a better situation for myself. Yes..I know..I have implied this many times..even I get bored with this.
H and I are in the midst of an awkward...building communication while preparing to separate tim in our lives.. We both run businesses out of the house..so we will not be separating until June...giving us time to wrap some stuff up at home..and really work on getting along better.. It is tense at time..awkward at best...After being in limbo about AP, I had decided to continue with our relationship because I just don't have it in me to end both at once.
I have come to care for AP deeply over the past several months..and especially in the past month after trying to split..realizing we wanted our friendship and then resuming A with more depth..hah..or so I thought. Although I know in the bak of my mind that once I am separated? I would give myself a few months to end with AP..because he is still married..and with me separated..it just changes the dynamics in a huge sort of way.