Ugh, I think I've got it bad...
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Ugh, I think I've got it bad...
| Wed, 11-03-2010 - 2:33pm |
So, it's been 3 days since I met up with AP for the first time, and I just can't stop thinking about him! To the point where I'm actually scaring myself! I can feel myself falling, hard and fast, and it really worries me. I'm not even sure where things are headed with him, and here I am, unable to get him out of my head! He knows I'm in the process of leaving H, but I don't know if he is planning on being with me for the long haul, or just enjoying that right now he can "be" with me without having to be committed. I want to bring it up, but I don't want to ruin what we have right now by overanalyzing it. Blah, I need to get

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I have a good song for this one...Hope you enjoy!
Much peace & Love,
Rayne
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Rayne
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Just slow down and take deep breaths: you're in the midst of some serious A fog right now!
I can tell you this much: they say it calms down over time, but I'm 11 months in, and still feel that way about AP :smileytongue:
anotherseyes
what fun for u if this is all new for u! welcome to the addiction of the affair. the adrenaline, the rush, the high, the dilated pupils, rapid breathing, and the heart pumping ecstasy that comes with finding a really good match. what u r feeling is temporary, dependent on seeing and touching him again. it may be
Much peace & Love,
Rayne
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marie, you are right on the money...I still get the butterfly feeling when I see a text pop up from AP.
Try not to worry to much about what goes on in AP's home with his W. As curious as you might be its good to know as little as possible most times. It just gets you more involved and maybe you don't want to know all the details. I think its something he's trying to handle at home and doesn't want to burden you with any of his problems. He goes to you for escape, release, fun, hope, etc...He doesn't want to ruin that by talking about his problems. Enjoy the moment & time that you are with him....go with the flow.
Much peace & Love,
Rayne
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