update from here

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Registered: 06-18-2003
update from here
Sun, 03-07-2004 - 8:09am
Good morning guys.It's ben crazy here.After the 3some H was fine until yesterday.We had a huge fight saying things that have needed to be said for a long time.

OM went to his Mom's Friday night( I'll explain that later)but reyrned on Sat.His 3 sister drive him nuts so he chooses to hang with us,plus there's added incentive with me:)

We messed around breifly but not fully last night.We talked along time.H was pissed and jealous because I spent that time talking with him.I had a drink and alcohol wires me so I didn't go to bed until 5 this morning.H wanted to talk when I laid down but not before he told me in his sleep to take my blankets and get out.When he woke up he denies saying this.I called his bluff and was going to do it.While talking h told me I consented to the other night because I knew it was going to happen eventually(OM and I made out with permission last April,turns out h watched us hidden).H thinks OM wants me and has feelings for me.I don't agree.H tried introducing him to 4 of our single freinds.They were playing spades.H said he wasn't interested at all because he wants you.OM and I were talking about them last night.He said they were cool but did act disinterested.He's so stressed worrying how he's going to get on his feet.He's not looking for a woman right now.

I tried to post really quickly last night while everyone was playing cards.OM came in so I logged off really quickly.I was jealous when I know I have no right to be.

While taking stolen moments last night I told him I'll take sex with you when and where we can get it.He laughed and said yeah we can't be picky.His youngest sister wanted to meet H so she came with him.She disturbed our groove by being a night owl .We did get some petting and rubbing in.So even if we can't go all the way he wanted to touch each other.He did alot of hand holding while I touched him,something he's never really done.Entwine my fingers with his.I'm hoping he'll take her home and be back here Monday evening.That way he'll be here Tuesday when H has meetings all day.We'll have at least 6 hours of real privacy.

So it's getting messy but I'm still being careful.H said lots that surprised me.We had trust issues I didn't know exsisted until now.And we've been together 17 yrs in Oct.I realise due to his disabiliy he'd been insecure but you think he'd get better after so long together.He did open doors by talking sex with OM and stuff.He did finally admit he enjoyed the other night.

I'll check in later when I can

Renee