Update on A (or non-A)
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|Mon, 07-23-2012 - 7:00pm|
AP is the biggest jerk of them all. I haven't heard a thing and I didn't expect to. I can't believe the cunning way in which he phased me out of his life. It's for the best FOR SURE but I just can't help feeling sad that the A is over. I miss the A itself more than HIM....well maybe I miss him a little....
I miss knowing someone is thinking about me. I miss feeling the butterflies. I miss his stupid face. I miss feeling like I'm dating in secret. I miss talking about his crazy ambitious projects. I miss the glamour he brought to my life as only a man in his position could. I miss the little "Hey" texts.
On a happy note H and I are in a great place now! I feel like I can focus on him! I never understood what people meant when they said they aren't "focused" on their primary relationships because of an A but now I understand how little I was giving my life...and how much more I could have been giving!
H doesn't really know what has happened except that I'm more affectionate and loving...we are having more IC and in general just happier.