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| Sun, 12-14-2003 - 5:46pm |
In short, I called MM at work. He was busy of course. So I told him I would make it brief. I told him I enjoyed the time I had with him, and they would always have a special place in my heart, but I feel he and I aren't looking for the same thing in the relationship. So it's time I move on and perhaps make room in life for someone who can find ten minutes once or twice a week to call me. Someone who understands when I make up excuses to get out of the house at night, just to meet him for dinner or drinks, will keep the date, not bail out because he's in "meetings". It puts me in a difficult spot at home, explaining why I'm dressed up but dinner with girlfriends is cancelled. He was pretty silent through all of this, occasionally saying, "Things really have been bad at work, I have been busy and traveling". I explained I understood that and didn't pressure him in any way, but while he was at the airport waiting for his flight, he could open his cell and call me if he was "thinking about me", but for whatever reason he chose not to.
He said "what about me". I told him "I think you will ok. You're busy, so if this upsets you, you will be able to keep you mind off of things." He started to talk about how things will be different at the beginning of the year, work will be slower, etc. At this point, I really didn't want to hear it, I gave him plenty of chances, I was patient. It was over for me. Of course the charm is turned on "you are such a fabulous woman, I was foolish (yes you were, I'm thinking), I just ask for a second chance." His second chance came the third and forth time he cancelled on me or didn't call or contact me for over a week. This was pointed out to him. Finally I said, "I like you, and enjoyed the time we had, but I'm pretty amazing and I deserve so much more then you can ever offer me. I think I will hold out for someone who has the time. Sorry to call you at work, but this is the only time I know I can contact you. Hope the New Year is a prosperous one for you, and you and your family have a Merry Christmas. Bye"
That night, surprise surprise he found the time to get on line. Too little too late.
So there you have it. I stayed away from the board last week and kept myself busy doing the things that make the holiday special. Surprisingly, I'm not sad over this, but relieved. I said from the beginning when the headache gets to be greater then the pleasure, it's time to leave. I didn't like they way the n/c made me feel; "what did I do", "did something happen to him", the phone would ring and I'd think "It's him", then feel my heart drop when it wasn't. I guess I just don't have the nerve and courage for an EMA. We live and learn. This girl is getting off the roller coaster, and now realize that I'm wired for......well, the swings! lol
I wish all of you luck with you MM/OM. Remember how wonderful you truly are, don't settle for second best. Have a wonderful holiday season, and thank you from the bottom of my heart for being there for me during all of this. God Bless.
Life

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Hi Life,
I don't believe you asked too much... not at all... to be patient and understanding, it is only fair to want that returned to you in the same way.
It's good to see you did what you had to do... for you! you are the one that matters... you are the most important... and if you can see that... then I think you'll be just fine.
I wish you all the very best in love and life... and enjoy those swings while you can :)
do try to pop in every now and then to let us know how you are.
luv and hugs
Sweet
Co-Community Leader My
What amazes me is the sense of peace I have. Which tells me, I did the right thing.
Since my M has been over for years, I'm not opposed to an EMA. If someone wonderful comes along in the future, I might consider it. Taking this much slower in the future. If nothing else, I have learned from this experience, and I'm stronger for it.
Life
I wish you the best of luck and much, much happiness from here on, :).
Just because we are in the position of being the OW we still should not settle for less than we each deserve...
Seeburg
MM did take you for granted and you took control of your life and moved forward, as hard as that was to do, and you are relieved too!! all the better!
congratulations and best of luck in the future. enjoy the holidays and stop in once in awhile to check in with us!
keep your chin up honey!!
gurl
Xmas has snuck up on me, and maybe on him too, but i don't care anymore. Again last week i vowed not to contact him AGAIN... i dont want to care anymóre and it takes too much energy to do so anyway. I look to you all for support and you have been great, so thanks again, and life and lila if you want to email, or chat, i am at mikkolover@hotmail.com..
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