Update...plus, I need help thinking
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| Thu, 12-18-2008 - 6:18pm |
I know it's been a while since I was here last, in complete despair, but, life got crazy....
I went back on my meds, amazingly, for some reason, my insurance still paid for this month, next month I will have to look into other help, but at least I got help for one month.
I was so close to losing my best friend because I couldn't cope, but, we managed to work it all out, and when the meds started to kick in, it made me see the sun again.
The administrators and counselors at school went way out of their way to help, I have never felt so much love from so many people as I did when I felt helpless, lost and confused.
So, MM wants to know what to get me for Christmas, and, seriously, I have no idea what I want. I don't need anything. I have more shoes than any woman has the right to own, same with sweaters, jackets, etc. I can't wear jewelry in school, and when I start my career, it will be the same thing, and besides, he has gotten me so many rings, I really don't need any more. I thought maybe an anklet, I could wear that at school and in my career.
We went shopping today, and he wants to spend $100.00 on each of the girls (give or take) and $300.00 on me. Maybe I should have him donate it to Stand Up 2 Cancer, hey, that's an idea!! Anyway, he has the girls conspiring for him, they keep asking me what I want, too. I am thinking that he gave them some money to get me something, because they said he made them promise to not tell me something...little turkey children.
So, besides donating the money, which is a great idea, what should MM give me for Christmas? I know how badly he wants to give, and, it's driving us both crazy that I am not coming up with anything. When we were shopping today, I did see a nice bath set that I wanted, so we got that for me, but, that was only $7.00, hmmm.
What are gifts that your AP's give you. In the past he has given me some incredible gifts, but, he said this year he doesn't want to surprise me because Christmas is going to be so much less exciting for the girls and me, and he thought comfort stuff, stuff that I chose would be the best way to go. I am in agreement, this is the first Christmas without H, and one year since he was diagnosed, so the girls and I are a lot apprehensive about the holiday this year.
So, ideas, and what would or do you want from your AP?
Thanks much,
mom

Hi sweetie -
So glad to read this update - you sound so much better than the last time you posted!!
I would agree with the others - a Visa gift card that you can use for your meds, food - or anything else you need so you don't have to stress about it - that sounds like the best Christmas present ever.
Now - for the girls - of course actual presents are best - that's the joy of being a kid - but for you-
Ok, so hopefully my stupid computer won't act up like the last few times. I have written things, gone to preview it, and the computer will shut off, it's happened twice, and I am not happy. Let's keep our fingers crossed that it doesn't happen this time.
So, every Saturday MM and I go grocery shopping, he pays for my groceries every week. He also offers to pay for my meds every month, some months I let him, so months I can do it myself, but, he always, always makes sure that we are taken care of in that way.
Yesterday he did say he was thinking about just giving me the money. He said that he realizes that since I am better at giving than at receiving, that if I had the money I could donate it to whatever I wanted to. I really liked that idea, until we went to the mall and I fell in love with this pretty little ring. I only wear rings on the ring fingers of both hands, and I have so many rings, but, I just loved that little ring...so, he got me that and a really pretty multi-colored sapphire ring. So much for donating...But, like he said, this is going to be the toughest Christmas for us, and maybe some feel good things is what I am going to be needing come Christmas morning when it is just me and the girls.
MM is the best friend I have ever had, he makes me realize that I am a lovable human being. He brings the Goddess out in me, and makes me proud to be a Goddess.
Oh, his birthday was last Monday, and I gave him gift cards to the fast food restaurants that he and W eat at every night (she doesn't cook, and he works 10 hour days, so, it's restaurants every night of the week). So, he got