Used and Cherished at the same time

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Registered: 07-17-2003
Used and Cherished at the same time
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Sat, 07-26-2003 - 9:11am
I am just so confused! MM and I were completely together for only the second time yesterday. This man is the embodiment of what I wanted in a H: smart, educated, funny, kind, a good father, etc. (Of course, I was only 2 when he and his W married!)

Anyway, on to the confusion... We left work early and came back to my house (my H is out of town until Monday). However, he couldn't leave as early as I did and then got hung-up on his way out the door. (Completely believable b/c I've seen it happen time and time again.) We basically were left with just one hour together so things progressed quickly. While making L, he looks so deeply into my eyes, moves the hair out of my face, and caresses me so gently. It's truly like I am being cherished and that every inch of my body is precious to him. Being with him gives me an emotional high like nothing else. It's just so "wow"!

Then comes the after-shocks. That's when I realized that he didn't even remove his pants, just pulled them down a little. My shirt and bra were pushed up, but not removed. His shirt was unbuttoned, but still on. As I thought about this after he left, I felt really cheap, like I wasn't worth the effort of completely removing the darn pants! And I wondered why he didn't tell the folks at work - something like he had a doctor's appointment - so he could leave without fixing their problem until Monday. Maybe it was just me and the letdown after being with him.

It was just so different from the first time we were together. We had a hotel room and 4-5 hours to make L and be intimate. We were completely undressed for nearly all of that time. There was none of this pants above the knees thing.

Do other people feel this way? I hate to compare it to this, but, well, drugs make you high and then there is this big letdown that makes you need more. Is that what is going on? An emotional/sexual high followed by withdrawals?

And, please don't tell me to end this A. The last time I asked for help/support, all I got was (paraphrased) "sounds like a bad situation, get out of it." I would like some real feedback about if other people feel like this.

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Registered: 06-26-2003
Sun, 07-27-2003 - 3:27pm
Carly,

I am assuming you are amazed "good". You

might be amazed "bad" though...

It is learning, but not as we know it.

Have a great day ;)


Edited 7/27/2003 4:00:48 PM ET by desertintherain

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