V-tines Day
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V-tines Day
| Tue, 01-20-2009 - 9:34pm |
ohhhh it's really gonna suck for me this year...oh yeah...try having it be your B-day as well..surprise surprise...but i do wish everyone here hearts, kisses and lots of wine and chocolates on that day..or at least i'll hope really hard that you all get lots of love from your lovers, whomever they may be, on that day.....
"be who you are and say what you feel, because those who mind don't matter and those who matter don't mind"---Dr. Seuss

Although I have an MM who will spoil me rotten on the Friday before Valentines day (we don't see too much of each other on weekends, just grocery shopping), Valentine's day this year is something I am so not looking forward to.
Last year on Valentine's Day I was supposed to drive up to the hospital to see H, but we had a blizzard the night before, and the roads were still unpassable, and I had to be to work by noon, so I just couldn't make it. So, the girls and I planned on going up the next day after school. But, while I was at work they called and said that the surgery they were attempting went very wrong (this was the 15th) and for me to hurry there, he might not make it. I got up there, and had my friend get the girls, and we were all there when he took his last breath. He bled to death the day after Valentine's day. I still have his card sitting on my dresser. MM was in Las Vegas when my H died, and I could only talk to him the next day. That sucked.
So, although I usually enjoy the day, this year I am just dreading it. Dang it, the man wasn't supposed to die, I wanted to divorce him, but I sure as heck didn't want him to die. He may have been mean and abusive, but he was still a friend, we had been married for 22 + years.
Dang it!
mom