Venting

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Registered: 04-26-2004
Venting
Thu, 04-29-2004 - 9:26am
Okay, yesterday P and I were supposed to meet for lunch to celebrate my new job. We'd made plans and he said he would call around 10 to decide where to go. By 11 he hadn't called, so I called him...on his cell, of course. He answers and says he's buried under a pile of paper and can't go. I was extremely upset by this because this is something he often does (at least once a week). The thing that really bothered me is that even though he was sooo busy, too busy to even get away for 30 minutes, he calls my cell a little after noon to talk. I didn't answer.

I finally talked to him last night and told him that he'd hurt my feelings. He said he didn't mean to do that and it wasn't about not wanting to see me (like I'd asked). He was just getting stuff piled on him this week and he was trying to get it all finished. My point is that it seems that lately I've been getting disappointed quite a bit. Granted, I know that with him being married, we can't have a typical relationship, but I do wish that I could see him more than I do. I'm trying so hard to be patient because I know there are deep feelings between us, and I know that in the long run, he is worth it!

By the way, my biggest fear is that I will become Marie from "When Harry Met Sally." The more frustrated I get, the more I see myself turning into her. Am I alone in that feeling or does anyone else feel that way?