this is just my opinion, but it sounds to me like you just want out of that lousy marriage to a man who lied about previous marriages and acts basically like a child. You don't need to have an A to get out of your marriage. I highly recommend getting out before seeking the company of others. The A is the alternative and it brings showers and floods of pain...
Yup what the other posters said. Get out now. The fact that your 18 year has no bond with your H should make it easier. Get divorced and then pursue something else.
Yup what the other posters said. Get out now. The fact that your 18 year has no bond with your H should make it easier. Get divorced and then pursue something else.
Good luck!