Very Confused
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Very Confused
| Sat, 05-15-2004 - 10:57pm |
I'm fairly new to this board and I have a bit of a dilemma. I have been in an on again off again relationship with MM for about a year and a half. I am also M. We work together and were very close friends when the relationship started. We had a blow up at Christmas because things were "getting too serious" We haven't been REALLY intimate in 6 months. We decided that we would just be friends again but everytime he sees me talking to another man he gets jealous and inserts himself into the conversation in some way. We talked about starting things up again only to fight about it a few weeks later. Things were really off for us and I ended up meeting someone else (also M...do you see a pattern?) I have a huge crush on the new guy. We email every few days but there has been no discussion about getting together.
My co-worker/friend/luv really started to get his personal life together. I took it as a sign that he was going to stop doing all the things that were bad for him...including me. We had NC for three weeks. When I saw him again it was like we were right back to the beginning of our relationship. He was so happy to see me he was almost giddy. We had the best talk and to top it off we are scheduled to go away on business together for four days. I did not ask what his thoughts were about the two of us. I guess I was afraid to...I really care about him. I think about being with him but I'm stuck on the new guy too.
Thoughts?
