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Very depressed
| Sun, 08-15-2010 - 11:40am |
Hi I just found out that the guy I have been having an affair with is moving out of my house soon. I know that is a good thing but I am a mess. The guy is my brother in law. I truly love this guy and wish I could be with him. The problem is I found this out last night and I have not been able to sleep for more than 20 minutes. I keep waking up, I keep crying I can't control my emotions. I am freaking out he is my best friend, he is always there to put a smile on my face when I am down. I am really hurting right now. I know everyone is saying to them selves this is a good thing but I don't feel that way. I know getting involved with my brother in law was a very big mistake but with the way I feel for him I couldn't help but feel this way. Not only am I losing the man that I love but I am also losing my best friend. Sorry for my whining I am just very depressed....Kaylee

You have a right to be depressed sweetie, since you are losing a lot.
But in the long run this is a good thing. You need to find a different best friend and someone else to put a smile on your face. You need to try to decide whether you should stay in your marriage or not. And you really should leave your marriage if you don't love your H. You love your brother-in-law, but you could find someone else to truly love if you leave your marriage.
It's going to take lots of time to get over this, and that's normal. Be kind to yourself. Focus on your children (I think you've mentioned a daughter?), your friends and keeping busy. Keep us updated on what's happening!
You've got a lot of choices. If getting out of bed in the morning is a chore and you're not smiling on a regular basis, try another choice. ~Steven D. Woodhull
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