The wake up call!
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| Sat, 07-31-2010 - 11:45am |
Hi all,
Had a really interesting conversation with AP this morning. Last night got a text off AP saying you know I love you I never replied and he ended up phoning me and telling me that he loved me and that he couldn't be without me. Today I was out shopping and AP phoned, he was at a friends who is also a friend of mine. This friend never knew about me and AP as he is also a friend of my childrens father and I didn't want him knowing anything about my life so asked AP not to say anything.
Turns out AP had poured his heart out about me and told him that it was me he was having an A with. Ap then told me that he couldn't just be friends with me that he loved me so much. To my suprise the friend although shocked it was me he was having an A with has fully supported AP. Apparantly him and his GF have had a good talk with AP and have told him that he should go with his feelings about me if he truly loves me. His friend has defended me saying that I'm a nice girl and that he better look after me as me and him have been friends for a long time and go way back. I spoke to his friend and he was very supportive told me that AP loves me etc.
AP said that this whole friends thing has been a wake up call for him. He said that he has realised that he does not want me to date other people. Apparantly when we went out last week and I said about staying friends it hit home that this is not what he wanted.Talking to his friend and his GF he said has been what he needed to do to get everything out and get another perspective. He has told me that he knows what he has to do and has to sort himself out as he truly wants to be with me. He has asked me give him some time, which I have told him I will and I won't put any pressure on him but I am not going to wait forever and end up 2 years down the line still in an A.
I am a little suprised at this as although I did know he loved me I sort of came to the conclusion that all we would ever have is an A. I realise that this may all go wrong again and I suppose I have put my guard up after what has happened between us.Ap told me that he has tried to stay away from me, hence the NC from him, but he can't do it. I really think that the time we were NC and then meeting last week has been what we both needed. I know that only time will tell if things will work out but I feel more comfortable and not as obsessive about him which is a huge step in my direction.
Thanks for all the advice and support from this board it has helped me more than anyone will ever know.
ali x

Hi marie,
No I am not a MW I am a SW he is MM. It was his choice to tell the friend not mine I never wanted him knowing but nothing I can do about that now. I do hope that nothing blows up. Ap would not have told him if he didn't trust him. I just hope that he keeps to his word that he won't tell anyone else. I think the less know the better.
ali x
I'm glad to see you're being guardedly optimistic.
Sometimes it takes a little time apart, some stepping back a bit, to really put things into perspective.
anotherseyes
Hi another,
thanks I really do hope it works out for us. We had another conversation last night about what he said and he confirmed again that he meant what he said. He said that if he pretended to be friends he would be lying to himself as he loves me. He also said that he has to make it work between me and him because he does not want to lose me. I said the at i'm sure if he got caught he would be different about things,