Wanting to feel DESIRED!
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|Wed, 08-08-2012 - 12:34am|
So I keep thinking that if I am desirable to another man then maybe I can more fully get over exAP. It's been a full month now and no word from him. Not that i would let him back in but I just wanted him to want me...I wanted to be the one to say "screw you".
SO I met someone on AM who seemed really great on paper (err or screen). Met him the other night for a drink. Surprisingly, he was very attractive, well dressed and all in all blew me away at first. He is very well spoken and well educated with his own business...all of these things were turn ons but...he says his wife is "overseas" which is a huge red flag. Also, he completely lied about his age. He is MUCH older. I didn't care. I just wanted this guy to be a sort of rebound. I thought he would want me and chase me a little...nothing serious...so that I could feel a little bit desired. Well, he bought me a few drinks and we kissed. He wanted more but I said no and left. I emailed him right afterwards and said that he was far too fascinating and attractive for a girl like me to trust. Then he said he realized a long time ago that he's not for the "faint of heart". To which I replied "Is that a challenge? "
No word from him after my last email. Nothing. My ego has taken a big hit. Now it's worse because not only do I feel rejected by AP but now THIS guy has sort of rejected me as well. LOL I guess it's a downward spiral.