Well, he finally emailed me...........
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| Wed, 10-29-2003 - 10:37am |
So there's my answer....it really is over, I guess. Which sucks because I really like him even just as a friend. This might sound crazy (I know I should just let go) but what are the chances that if I do ignore him for awhile, it'll drive him nuts and he'll come back to wanting to at least talk to me again? I'm trying to protray an image to him that I don't care about whether he talks to me or not because I don't want him thinking I'm completely insane and obssessed but in all reality, this is the worst thing that's happened to me in a long time. I really, really, really, like him and don't want this to end like this. Not without at least a passionate kiss!!!!!!
Does the ignoring thing work? Or should I proclaim my deepest feelings for him? I want to scream at him....."choose me" but out of utter fear of rejection, I'm acting instead like I don't care at all whether he comes or goes.
so instead, I'll scream here!!!!!!!! AAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!
"Blue"

let him go, no kiss, no talking, no friends. he obviously can't handle the A and the guilt. and what kind of "friendship" would it be -- you trying to pull him in and him pushing you away!
it's over so you need to move on with your life. sorry to be so blunt, but you're trying to hold on to something that's not there.
take care,
gurl
As for my M, I know that this isn't where I want to be in that relationship. I don't want to be married, but right now, I don't know where to go with that. I started having the "talk" with my H, telling him that I thought we got married to quickly and that I think I'm too young to be a wife. But, to be completely honest, the thought of trying to go this alone ($$ wise), scares me to death. I'm in university so I only work part time. My H supports us. But I know I don't love my H the way I should and deceiving him really bothers me. I hate pretending to be someone I'm not.
Thank you as always for listening and your advice. I really do appreciate it!
"Blue"
Right now, it might be best to learn from this, and let it go.
With huges,
Life
Dusty