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| Sat, 01-17-2009 - 12:29pm |
well since last Thursday, AP#1 has been calling me every day just about.
| Sat, 01-17-2009 - 12:29pm |
well since last Thursday, AP#1 has been calling me every day just about.
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right on Tori!
I've read some of your posts on this board, and I have refrained from responding to them. Because, quite frankly, I didn't wish to hurt your feelings or ruffle your feathers. But after reading these, I just can't stay quiet. I realize that more than likely, you won't listen to a thing I say. But I figure it's worth a shot to try and put you on the reality program.
I come to this board a lot and read what people have to say. And though I know that everyone here has been involved in an affair at some time or another, I do still sense that most of the people have some semblance of integrity. Most seem to grasp that though they are still participating in it, they realize that an affair is not exactly....a good thing. You, however, seem to be someone completely out of control. Not only are you having an affair, you're having one with two people and actively pursuing a third...and you're doing all of this behind the back of a man you call your "husband", whatever that means to you. And you're so very cavalier about it, as if it's the most natural thing in the world. I find this very disturbing. If you were a single woman doing this, it would still be fairly dysfunctional behavior, but for a married woman to be doing it, it's simply outrageous.
My guess is that your husband doesn't know about this. Any of it. Because unless the two of you have an open marriage and/or a swinging lifestyle, there is no way in he!! most men would put up with this kind of behavior. No way. And since you don't mention in any of your posts that you have this kind of an agreement with him, then it's a pretty safe bet that he doesn't know. How can you do this to him? How can you sleep around with multiple partners while playing the dutiful wife at home? How can you look in his eyes and your own in the mirror and not feel any shame or remorse for what you're doing? Do you just compartmentalize everything and live in a state of constant denial about it all? (It's not THAT bad. It's ok. I like it, so therefore there's nothing wrong with it.) I am asking this question seriously. Because what you're doing is not cute. It's not charming. It's not healthy. It speaks of something really amiss in your psyche or your character or both. It speaks of a sexual addiction or a self-esteem problem or a personality disorder. Do you feel that you're not attractive deep down, and that by sleeping with men affirms that you are? Because I'll tell you, I am 100% certain that all of these men you're sleeping with, I have no doubt that I could sidle up to all of them and they'd sleep with me, too. Guarantee it. It has nothing to do with you. It doesn't prove that you're worthy, that you're beautiful, that you matter. It means that you're available and will do it. That's all. Don't kid yourself. The fact that you seem to get off on the idea that he lies next to his wife and thinks of nothing but you screams loudly that you find some sort of twisted validation in this. Again, don't kid yourself. Because the only thing about yourself that you are validating in your promiscuous, adulterous behavior is that you are one sick ticket.
You mentioned that your AP#1 is your pastor. You have got to be kidding me. Of what? The Church of the Divine Bible Banging Hypocrites? Sitting in church on Sunday, all holy, and then totally ignoring it all during the week. How a man could possibly stand in front of a congregation and preach to them while he's shagging one of the flock behind his wife and her husband's back is beyond me. It's a bunch of cr*p, actually. Really bogus. It's the stuff that National Enquirer headlines are made of. It's cause for bringing a man of the church down, shamed and disgraced. Yet you seem to think it's oh so titillating.
You mentioned that you love sex, and that your husband can't put up with your drive. It's not a "drive". It's a disorder. It's called Nymphomania or, in layman's terms, sexual addiction. On the street it's called being "easy", "loose", "sl*tty". Do you have daughters? If so, THIS is the example you wish to set for them? "Hike that skirt up, honey, so all the football players can have their fun! Who cares about STDs? Who cares about AIDS?"
In all reality, you are an affront to all women on here that are involved in affairs, because you stoop to such a disqustingly self-absorbed level. Bragging about shagging the guy behind his wife's back, suggesting that you are oh so much better than her. That is just tasteless. Let me tell you something.....there is no doubt in my mind that when it comes to class and eloquence, you aren't even in her league, and if you think I'm just a bitter BS, think again. I'm sure he would throw you under the bus so quickly it would make your head spin.
You better hope that your husband doesn't decide to go out and get a few chippies on the side himself. Because I have no doubt whatsoever that as much as you have carried on with other men, you would be completely indignant. Hypocrites are like that.
If I were you, instead of spending your time posting here, bragging about your conquests, I'd be sitting in a therapist's office trying to figure out what the he!! was wrong with me. I wouldn't be surprised if you'd been sexually abused as a child. Promiscuous women often were.
One other thing. I have no doubt that there are other women on this board that feel the way I do about what you post here. They're probably afraid to say anything. I, however, am not.
Edited 1/18/2009 3:53 pm ET by tellithowitis
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