what do u do, when you just want to cry
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what do u do, when you just want to cry
| Mon, 11-02-2009 - 10:08pm |
This is my first time posting, though I have been reading/lurking for awhile now.
I'm totally in love with my AP and devestated. My AP was my first love and my first everything actually. That was way back over 25 years ago, and lasted for 3 or so years while in high school. I was in love with him then, he would tell me he loved me, but then be with other girls, not sexually, but just date them, then come back to me. Well, this past may, after 22 years,

I'm so sorry you are hurting. I wish I had good advice to give. It's just that I'm in the mix of my A but on the verge of breaking it off. I do know that he does not deserve you and you should be treated better than this. I would try to not contact him as hard as it may
Thank you.
I will try not contacting him, and yes, it will be very hard. He pulled this crap in high school, and I did move on, but I was younger then, and apparently smarter.
Now, I just feel punched in the stomach. I don't think he has any idea how much it hurts. I want to tell him, but I think that may just feed his ego. I can't eat, I can barely work, I just cry. It's ridiculous. My H knows I'm hurting, but doesn't know entirely why. He just thinks my old friend, quit being friends with me because his GF told him too.
So let me get it straight....you and this other girlfriend of his compete with each to win affections of a guy who is on top of everything MARRIED?
When you want to cry, you just cry - that's what I did when I break off my affair. Cry if you need to. Sometimes you'll cry so much that you'll feel numb afterward.
Then you'd cry less.
And less.
Then you'll notice you haven't cried for a week.
Then one day you'll look back and won't believe you'd ever cried over this man.
But you have to break it off to make it happen, and you have a power within you to do just that.
Love and hugs,
GbG