what the hell am I doing!

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Registered: 10-16-2003
what the hell am I doing!
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Thu, 10-16-2003 - 2:46pm
I have no idea what I'm doing...I met this wonderful man..my butcher actually. We've been flirting for months. I am married and so is he. There is this attraction between us that is intoxicating. Yesterday we meet at a local park. It took all I had to not make love with him. I felt like a teenager.

We both have been with our spouses for 11 years & have children. I am 44 , he is 40. Just the sight of him makes me shake, and from what I can see, I have the same effect on him. Neither of us has ever contemplated anything like this, let alone act on it.

I just went out and purchased some some sexy bras & panties...I haven't done this in years! I don't know what I'm doing. I can't help myself. I want to be with him........ADVICE!!!!!!

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Registered: 10-16-2003
Fri, 10-17-2003 - 8:36pm
Hello Jen & thanx for the input. Yes I love my husband & yes I have a child. I truly do not what is happening....there is an attraction that can't be denied! We both have responsibilities yet we r drawn towards each other. For a long time it was conversation..about everything..not even our home lives...but life in general...much in common..much in common...that never came to be in our current relationships. I need to know...I need to know because if I don't I will always wonder. I wish I could say it is only physical but it's not...I like the person inside. He makes me feel comfortable. I'm a pretty outgoing person & some people take offense to me because I do not beat around the bush, I don't play the politically correct game...he just accepted me. Just as my husband did (does). Is it possible to care for two people?..or has our society set limits that we must stay within...that our church & laws say is so horrid! I need to know...to know if he might have the ultimate what I had been looking for..or should I just say maybe, maybe if it had been another place..another time? Laurie
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Fri, 10-17-2003 - 8:54pm
is this normal...last time I felt this was w/hubby...10-11 years ago!...I saw him today..went to the butchers (he is one) & he wasn't ther..I thought " f&^%...I am such an dummy!"...then his one good buddy said to me that he had to go out on a delivery..they were short a few guys...well, 3 minutes later he comes running into the shop..says " Oh thank god I made it back in time"... they were busy & we didn't have much time to talk...just those intimate looks..the ones that make you're knees go weak. When I was walking out the door, he was in back cutting meat for a customer....as I was getting into my car, he comes running out the back door... says he can't stop thinking about me and hands me a piece of paper (phone # on it)& says "call me tonight before 10:30...that;s when she gets home"..well, needless to say, my hubby is out for a while & I will put my 6 yr. old to bed at nine & I most certainly will call him...9 minutes left..I can hardly wait!!!!!

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