What the hell am I doing? First EMA

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Registered: 10-13-2003
What the hell am I doing? First EMA
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Mon, 10-13-2003 - 9:04pm
Hello to all! I am new here. I have been married for 6 years (together for 11 yrs) and have a 3 year old son. About two months ago, I had a sexual dream about this really hot guy that I go to school with. Well, the next time I saw him, I told him about it. The same day, he invited me over to his house for "lunch" but I refused, telling him that I was happily married. About a week later, myself, this guy and some other friends went out to lunch. We all had a couple of drinks with lunch. After lunch, he asked me to come to his house and I did.....reluctantly. We sat in his living room and started watching a movie. Then, he started massaging my shoulders and then started kissing my neck. I was afraid to kiss him, but wanted to so bad. I hadn't kissed another man in almost 12 years. So, we kissed and touched and ended up on his bed kissing and touching some more. I never took my clothes off, but he climaxed on his own.

This all happened on a Friday afternoon. I was a mess all weekend. I couldn't stop thinking about him. Then, when I saw him again on Tuesday, we had sex. We've had sex 3 or 4 times since that. He is single and goes out with his guy friends alot. I have no idea who else he is sleeping with. Of course, we always use protection, but it's still a risk.

My husband has no idea about this. Our sex life is still the same (about 1 time/week) and it's always good. I never imagined I would ever even consider cheating, but now that I have, I am enjoying it. There are no emotions involved with this guy, but I think about having sex with him all the time. Can anyone relate? Am I losing my mind? I ask myself everyday, WHY AM I DOING THIS? But, so far, I can't come up with an answer. I just needed to get it off of my chest. Any feedback will be great!

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Registered: 06-24-2003
Mon, 10-13-2003 - 11:05pm

Hi drmel and welcome to the board,


I think a lot of us can relate to what you are feeling... for most... but not everyone... a lot of EMA's start out physically... I know for me, although we started as online friends... it didn't take long to get physical... and I couldn't get enough of MM... and after 3 and a half years... I still can't! *s*


I think though... that now is the time to sit down and ask yourself a few questions... specially... is OM worth it??? is the sex worth risking what you may lose... ie your marriage.

Sweet
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