What Now?? We had a GOOD talk!!
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What Now?? We had a GOOD talk!!
| Mon, 07-26-2010 - 7:41pm |
Oh, my. Got back from my weekend vacation and came over to AP's apt (still here - he is at work right now). I played it very cool, and did get overly clingy or cuddly. He started the cuddling!! We started out watching a movie and he just held my hand and snuggled...I really did miss him. However, I am keeping my head held high and really wanted to bring up the Ms. Nicole topic with him and how it bothered me when he talked about her...we ended up in bed for a short and sweet IC rendevous and then I had to quick leave to go teach a violin lesson. I came back and guess what?? HE brought up the subject! He said "I know that talking about Nicole is a sore subject with you and I won't do that anymore." :) He DOES care for me, and now the problem is...GUILT is creeping back up with him. He is making comments like, "this situation is my fault" and "this is a temporary situation, right?" I have heard all of these comments before. I do NOT want to lose this man, at least not right now. What now?? Thankfully, I will be going on another vacation next week and will be gone for almost 2 weeks. OMG, can I handle it?? LOL. It will be very good for us, I think. And especially for ME!!!!!! I had actually had the thought in my mind of walking away from this whole thing - he also made a comment to me today that if we gradually "wean" off of each other (I don't see any hope in that one) that it is going to hurt. Now WHY would he say it would "hurt" if he didn't really care for me? Yes, he does care. Should I just back off for awhile? I know that A's go through phases of hot and cold. This is my first one, so I am incredibly thankful for any advice you ladies have for me.
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| Mon, 07-26-2010 - 10:10pm |
Glad you had a good meet up. i always feel invigorated and happy after a good rendevous! ;)
