What was I thinking?????

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Registered: 03-30-2004
What was I thinking?????
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Thu, 04-08-2004 - 11:26am
All of you probably know by now that I am in week 9 of not having been with MM. We are in contact daily due to the fact we work together. Everything has been great there. He has even called on the weekends to check in, which lets me know that he is thinking about me when I'm not around. The reason he states for our distance are he has "issues that he needs to deal with on a personal level". He just needed some time. So I have been giving it to him. I have not initiated contact even at work. He wants "time" I'm going to give him time...........so.....here is what happened this week. On Monday he begins coming to my room again on his lunch. He sent me a note in the afternoon. Just to say hi, check in, gets a little hug. Nothing major. Tuesday we have to opportunity to eat lunch together and this is great. He comes and sits with me and we have good conversations with fellow workers and again sends me a note in the afternoon......Wed. He comes to my room twice during lunch. Once to ask me how to check his school email and he also motions with his head towards the CLOSET (RED HERE WE GO AGAIN!!!) and I just laugh (cause I don't know what to say.....remember the "TIME" thing) and he just leaves smiling. Then he comes back again and wants me to actually show him how to check, send email. I do this leaning over the desk with butt in his face (how's that for making him question the "TIME" ISSUES) He sends me emails in the afternoon, trying to get the hang of how it works. He says if it "don't eat oats he don't know how to work it". Anyway, he gets the hang of it and we email back and forth all afternoon. General conversations. After school he again comes to my room....let me say it's the first time in 3 weeks my daughters haven't been there with me, so I am alone and he comes in and closes my door and wants to know where everyone is. I just say I don't really know and he askes me to go to the closet and I just smile and raise my eyebrows.......not yes and not really a no..........he smiles and turns and walks out my door.....


Ok here is my question.............WHAT THE HECK IS HE TRYING TO DO TO ME?????? I mean, I think if he was the one that needed time, should he not open this with at least some explanation about what's been going on the past 8 weeks????

Red, I hated to pass up that closet deal, cause I know we all want moments like that. But I was paralyzed and speechless. I just feel like I deserve more after being so patient with him about this distance he has put between us. He is very much a person that doesn't confront the issues. He is very personal about everything. I've said before he has many friends but not close to any. He has told me early in this relationship that he is closer to me that anyone, almost as close as he is to his mom (whom he is very close to). We talk about anything, so why can't he just try to talk to me about this.......is going to the closet his way of trying to tell me that everthing is back to normal or just an impulse he is feeling for the moment?

Was I wrong for not taking that step???

Kitty

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Registered: 02-16-2004
Thu, 04-08-2004 - 2:01pm
Yeah, I'm getting pretty bad....I'm afraid I may wear out my MM when he comes back into town. *wink* I want him right now so bad..... ;)
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Registered: 03-30-2004
Thu, 04-08-2004 - 2:25pm
To steal words from my MM, I could use a little exercise right now!! The Monday after our last all nighter, MM asked me how my weekend was....he said that he had a VERY BIG WEEKEND. I told him I'm too old for all the intense exercise, I fell like I had done about 10,000 crunches and squats. But we must all endure the pain to experience the pleasure!!!!!!

Here's to CLOSETS AND INTENSE EXERCISE!!!!

:)

KITTY

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